..::every single sec counts::..

assalamualaikum...
today.....
wat i wanna write is more about myself...
and its a kind of reminder for me especially.....

its a long holiday...
and to be honest...
i hate holidays.....
why???
cause my relationship with Him usually will become weaker...
and during those days...
shaytan will put its fullest effort to keep me away from Him...
hope that they will sent only a prebet shaytan for me...
cause i know...
i will not be strong enough to withstand a coperal shaytan...
and i am determined that im going to confront with them later...
as time goes by...
i will make my faith in U strong!!!

i know....
it is the same U when im in KMB or home...
it is the same love that i get....
U let me breath...
U let me eat....
U let me see the world...
U let me live one more day to give me chance and repent...
U even let my hands move and type this thing...
it is all becoz of UR love to me...
i know...
but still....
i alwaz forgot U...
and U....
alwaz remember me...
by letting me do everything listed above...
by letting me do watever i want...
even letting me betray U....
in hope that i will come back to UR arms...

*sigh*

o....
myself...
r u not AFRAID of HIS HELL??????
do u think that all of His reminder in Quran are just plain jokes????

come on baby...
back to the right path...
dont let urself jump into the monies again....

He has so many servants..
and all of them are persuing His love..
why dont u want to compete with them???
come on!!!
wake up!!!!!!
wake up from UR ALMOST-REAL-DREAM!!!!
in the end...
u will meet Him...
and what kind of love do you want to show Him??
what kind of ibadah do u want to present to HIM??
dont be like Qabil....
He will not accept ur rotten ibadah..
so dirty and smelly....
so ugly.....
even u cannot stand to be by ur amalan together in the grave...
with u...

remember 3:9
ali imran: verse 9

"He will keep His promise!!!!"

and remember...
every single sec counts....
wat did u do..
or u r doing..
counted for the hereafter day..
for the JUDGEMENT DAY!!!!!

(SETIAP DETIK DIHISAB)

FLY ME TO THE MOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fly me to the moon
and let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On jupiter and mars
In other words,
hold my hand
In other words,
Darling take me
Fill my heart with You
and let me love for ever more
You are all I long for
All I worship and adore
In other words,
please be true
In other words,
I love YOU.....
........
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doubt???

i dont know how to start with.......
i'm too bad...
bad girl.....
bad daughter....
im a bad person...
bad servant....

i cant even think only U..
how can U alwaz think about me when im not thinking of U??
O Allah...
pliz..
let me feel UR love once more...
and i will hold onto it...
will hold onto it...

hold it to U like what i did to that Korean idol...
hold onto U like what i did to those TV shows...
hold onto U like what i did to that Japan dramas....

no... no...no.......

i will keep on to U more than all these and those things in this world..
pliz...
i really need UR love...
im begging U....
dont let me be where U cant see me as UR precious....
can i be UR love one????
eventhough i admit that im no good to U compared to Muhammad..
compared to Aisyah...
compared to Khalid al-Walid....
compared to all sahabat..
compared to Hassan al-Banna...
compared to Syed Qutb........

PLEASEEEEE..........
return me back to where i am........
to UR arms.....
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..::a moment on earth::..

assalamualaikum......
sorry 4 d silent period of time....
hehehe....
how's ur iman???
OK or KO????
opsss.....
nauzubillah.....
insyaAllah we are still in His heart.....
like what He said in Surah Ar Rahman:31
" We will ALWAZ pay a full attention to all of U, O mankind and jin"
HE alwaz gonna remember us...
then...
a question that we can extract out from the above statement is....
"HOW FAR DO WE KEEP A FULL ATTENTION UPON HIM LIKE WHAT HE DID TOWARDS US?"

krik....krik.....krik..............

seems like there is sound of crickets....(cengkerik)
hehehe........

yesterday is the day that i learn new thing......
new understanding.....
for me..............
act, it is not a new understanding.....
it is just that i am new to this understanding.......

*flashback*

time:3 pm
venue: somewhere around pak guard's house

all of us (M09C) are waiting for any vehicles that are going to pick us up to meet teacher fauziah in bagan lalang....
and then........
i notice that i cant hear anything whenever i wanna call somebody using my latest handphone...
i only can texting.....
that's the end of first tragedy....

time:4.30 pm
venue: somewhere around sg pelek

our unique vannette broke down...
all of us were stuck at the middle of the road with many of cars behind us keep beeping their hon....
as the result..
we have to pull over our van to the other side of the road so that we are not blocking the way......
end of second tragedy....

a bit later...
i text my sister to ask about my phone and she suggest me to turn off and on my phone again ...
i did and later on i can hear someone talking when i call my sister...
alhamdulillah...
i quickly call my mother and suddenly she said that my grandmother was gone at 3 pm today..
TODAY!!!....
while im waiting for the van...
i dont know how to react....
end of third tragedy......

SELF-REFLECTION:
feel like filling in CAS form....
aiyak....

i learn something..
and u know what??
i learn that everything that we plan is only a plan...
all of the journey on completing what we had already plan is all depends on Him...
the night before...
we are just planning to visit teacher fauziah and...
of course we do imagine that after econs paper,
we will go straight to teacher's house...
imagining a very perfect day...
and of course without the breakdown of my handphone...
without breakdown of the van...
without pushing the van aside by ourselves..
without knowing that my grandmother was going to leave us..
at that moment....

i think back....
everything will end with Allah....
no matter how perfect our plan is....
Allah is the one that will be responsible to make our plan comes true or even only a failure plan..
hmm...
i just realise that...
subhanallah..
how can i forgot U????